>>.C.a.s.e.y.<.<. (solong_lexton) wrote in express_this,
>>.C.a.s.e.y.<.<.
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express_this

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It was a cloudy day. Summer just left me again. You were there today. How can you just get online like that and ignore me? I smelled you today and tears came to my eyes. It was never supposed to hurt me when I heard your name. I was never supposed to act like I don't care about you. I was never supposed to stop sitting there because you held me there. But you were never supposed to hold me there anyways. A month ago, I was torn up. A month later, you're still in my mind. Your name can completely change my day. Maybe you changed my life. I wish you hadnt. I wish you would have never told me you loved me. Because I melted right there. I wish you would have never had sex with her. I wish you didnt smoke. I wish you could really believe me. I wish you hadnt called me there. I wish I would have never seen you. I wish I would have never gone to your house. I wish you would have never called me at all. I wish we would have never kissed. I wish I would have never made out with you. I wish we would have never gone to the movies. I wish you would have never came to the softball fields. I wish you weren't such a romantic. I wish you would not have doubts. About me. About you. I wish you would be happy. I wish you didnt think about sex with me. I wish you would have pissed me off. I wish you were a virgin. I wish we had gone to the beach. I wish I could surf without thinking about you. I wish we could have never spoken. I wish we wouldnt have snuck out of church. I wish we would have never been a "we". I wish I could hear my song you wrote and hate it. I wish you hated rock. I wish you didnt skate. I wish you were younger than me. I wish you couldn't play the guitar. I wish we never did what we did on that friday night. I wish you had never liked Allison. I wish you were like him because if you were I would have had nothing to do with you. I wish you never gave me your shit. I wish I hated Dashboard Confessional. I wish you would get on and talk to me. I wish we never happened. I wish I hated you. But I dont. And thats what bugs me the most. I wish you still loved me. I wish you still loved me. I wish you still think about me. I wish I could forget you. Forget everything. I wish you didnt underestimate yourself. I wish for my scavenger hunt. I wish for the plastic around the balogna. I wish you remembered all of those. I wish we could have our house. I wish for Mauloa and Mark Obis. I wish for that hammock at the beach you talked about. I wish you would play the game with me. I wish you knew how I feel. After 6 months, I still feel this way baby. I wish you knew how sorry I am for lying to you. I wish you actually fucking cared about me. I wish you could see me cry because if you could you know you couldn't take it. I wish you'd stop smoking. I wish you knew how much I care about you. I wish you knew how happy you made me. And still do when I see you. Even with her. I wish I could know you love me. I wish you loved me. I wish we could be together forever. I wish we would have kept everything we've ever promised to one another but then i remember...the night you glanced away.
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